Actually, I almost forgot that it's his birthday today. I'm such a bad cousin... But I managed to buy his present on time thanks to my good friend, Riyal who was so willing to put up with my whiny attitude to go present shopping with me. Thank you! ^^
Classes today was OK. I have learned many things, & one of them is that I will never see any TV ads or music videos like normal people do from now onwards. That's because in the Principles of Advertising class, my lecturer taught the class on how to be observant about what images celebrities are trying to portray in their music video, what messages they want to convey to their audience & also who their target audience are. We learned all this by just watching 2 of Lady GaGa's music videos - "Poker Face" & "Bad Romance", plus a new movie trailer (but I forgot the name... =P).
Today's Performing Arts class was great as usual. Lovies to all the seniors who are teaching me & my friends the "Jai-Ho" dance routine. However, my leg injury which hasn't recover became worse right now. & I know it's not their fault. It's my stubborn attitude of not giving dancing a one-day break. But I just can't help it! Dancing is air to me. I need it to "breathe"... =)
I was also very worried throughout the day today. That's because one of my friend was sent to the hospital twice because she was suspected to have the H1N1 influenza, since her fever didn't subside & she was physically drained out. Luckily, it was a negative. WHEW~~~~
Finally, I had another very emotional phone conversation with my mum not long ago. We were just talking about the computer router & some other random stuff (or more like problems) when she & I started to have a little "Voice- raising competition". After that, she threw me ultimate weapon on me - Money. That's when reality hit me like a ton of rocks, & I started sobbing. I seriously hate to be accused for something I didn't do, & this is one of them. I felt like I was being accused for spending money like water since my arrival in KL. The truth is, I'm trying so Goddamn hard to save every penny that I can. The problem is, the prices of EVERYTHING here are darn expensive! No matter how much I calculate & save, I tend to use more than I save. Most of the money I spent on are on food (breakfast, lunch & dinner). & in one day alone, I can use up to RM50.00 just for 3 meals. That's a whole lot of money! >.< Plus with the guilt that I'm feeling when I go to college because my parents don't want me to take the loan. I really don't like to squeeze my parents' pockets. But they won't let me work, nor let me take a loan. Plus, my mum told me to take it easy in my studies, because she doesn't want the "incident" in Form 5 to happen to me again. She knows that I get stressed up very easily & when I'm stressed, I'll do crazy stuff (not good). She told me not to force myself to get the 3.0 CGPA, instead just pass the exams. She said that the scholarship is not that important. These stuff she told me really made me feel more guilty than ever! My course is not cheap at all, plus my living cost here. It's total hell! *sighs* Typing these stuff really makes me wanna cry again.... *sobs*
I had better stop now. I need to clear my mind & get some sleep as well, because I have classes tomorrow.
That's all for now. Till then....
Signing off,
~Steph~
(they girl y'all never expected to be...)
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