Yes, I'm back...

It's been far too long since I last blogged about anything, and I seriously thought that I have forgotten my blog password... Well, that is until I realized that my email address is the access to my blog... LOL! (Total dumb blond moment) :P

Anyways, since I'm now over here, mind as well rant out everything because currently, I'm in a total shitty mood. This week has been very interesting in a way, for things that I never expect them to happened had happened right before my eyes.

Before I go the "depressed" part, let me put on a little sunshine information, since I haven't blogged for so long, and my last post just stayed stagnant at me with my fiancé. Well, surprise surprise! We broke up during the month of December 2011. Main reason? He cheated on me. During the whole of 2012, I totally changed. I became a smoker, drinker and clubber. That is, until the time when I graduated from diploma last year (yes, I'm now a degree student at my college... Yay me! xD), that I decided to put a stop to it, and get my life back on track. I continued my dream of dancing at Shall We Dance studio, and continued my degree right after my diploma. And guess that? I'm super thankful and glad up until now for pulling myself out of that shithole.

Things were going great for me in the beginning of 2013. I got to continue my dream of dancing, enrolled myself to a gym and got myself fit,and I continued my studies at a higher level. Things got even better on the 3rd of March 2013 (03.03.2013), because that is when I met my current boyfriend, Benjamin. x) The story for this is very interesting, but long.... So I shall post that for another blog itself later... LOL!

Alright, now that the sunshine information part is done, I shall start my rant.... Just a reminder, the things that I'm gonna rant might make you guys go in the wtf mode, so read at your own risk k? xP

For the past one week, or more like after my boyfriend and I came back from our first couple's getaway trip to Cameron Highlands, things have not been going smoothly with both us and my own personal life. First off, my lecturers have been totally trolling me to the max. Before that, I thought that I had to rush for my assignment deadline, so I didn't sleep for the past two days just to get them done... Only to find out that they have decided to postpone the deadlines to next week. With me not having enough sleep, I will go into total weird-ass bitchy mode. So yea... That was what exactly happened. In which after that, led to my boyfriend and I having a whole lot of conflicts. Not those little couple's argument, but to those huge shouting and screaming and crying type of arguments. It went up to the point of last night, where he, for the first time of me seeing it, totally lost it. I know what you guys are now lol... You guys are going all " omg he hit you didn't he?". He didn't, and I really thank God for that. But, he totally lost it as in he started showing his darker side that I have never seen before. I was scared at that time, that I'll admit. But strange enough, it didn't go to the point where I actually feared him. Nevertheless, this argument was intense, but we managed to resolve it... So yea...

The latest one had just happened a few hours ago. I woke up and realized that I've left my laptop in college. So, now I'm trying to calm myself down, but so far... *sigh* I'm praying very hard now that no one will steal it away.... Gosh... My brother decided to help me go to college and search for it, and I really hope that he'll find it. :(

Oh well... Life...

That's all for now. I will try to update as soon as possible from now on, but I can't promise much as degree is taking the most out of me. Till then...

Signing off,
Xoxo

P/s: this is the first time that I'm using my iPad to write a post. Interesting experience actually...

Pampered

  I have always wondered about this question since I was a child. Why do elders, like our parents, always love to give us this sort of quote: "You're so pampered."?? How do we know whether we are pampered?? For all I know during my childhood, I wasn't pampered. For one, I always had to work to get what I want, and sometimes I won't get what I want. But as I got older, I finally realized what they meant by "being pampered". I've listed a few questions based on the olden-day stories that my elders have told me, and also based on my experience to determine (more or less) whether I'm actually being pampered. The list of questions (not in order) are as follows:

1. Do I have a roof over my head? - Yes

2. Do I have food on the table every single day? - Yes

3. Do I have my own room? - Yes

4. Do I have to slot hard just to live? - No

5. Do I have allowance every day? - Yes

6. Do I have my future secured? - Yes

7. Do I have to fork up my own money to pay bills? - No

8. Do I even have to pay bills? - No

9. Do I have to worry about my living state? - No

10. Do I have to take living responsibilities? - No

11. Do I usually get what I want? - Yes

  From the list of questions above, it's been concluded that I'm TOTALLY PAMPERED, because I NEVER had to take the responsibilities which my parents are actually taking. In fact, my parents bought a FREAKIN' huge condo for me so that I don't have to stay in a hostel. Not only that, they're even buying me a car so that I don't have to endanger myself everyday with public transports. They even give me an allowance of a few hundred bucks PER-WEEK so that I don't have to suffer here in the Big City. And for me to get these sort of luxury, my father had to be away from my family to get a higher-paying job, while my mum had to go back to the working world as a teacher. I feel so blessed, at the same time guilty. That is why, I am determined to repay them by studying hard and earning myself a high-paying career. :)

  So.... Are you being pampered?

Back In The Big City

  Well, I'm now back in the Big City, because my semester will be starting soon... I actually came back yesterday afternoon with my family, but I didn't update then because I had A TON of stuff to do. :P So, pardon me for updating late. :)


  Yesterday, my family and I went to my college to settle my current semester fees and also to inquire about my brother's options... :S You see, my brother has just finished his SPM, but his result wasn't ALL THAT impressive. :\ Therefore, my family and I decided to take other "alternatives" so that my brother can continue his studies. In the beginning, the student counselor said that there's NO WAY that he can go for a Diploma because he's short of ONE grade. But then, because he was opting for Mass Comm just like me, and a little bit of "twitching" and risk taking, they've agreed to let my brother in.... But at the same time, he MUST retake ONE subject in his SPM to pass the requirement, or else NO DIPLOMA CERT WILL BE GIVEN TO HIM! *big sigh*


  Well.... That's my brother, and in the end, he's the only one who can make the decision whether to wait for the Form 6 (Pre-U) offer letter or slot his way up~~ :S


  After that, we went to see my car in Perodua. My cousin's friend found a 2007 Kelisa for me. The car was AWESOME!!! That is..... Until we found out that there's something wrong with the engine... :( Ugh.... You know? I'm tired of waiting for my car.... I've already reached that point where I don't care whether I have my own car or whatever.... *sigh*


  At night, my mum suddenly told me and my brothers that my uncle actually invited us for his family's (mainly his niece's) wedding dinner. At first,we were like "WTF?? We don't even know them!". But then, we went anyways to just see what this particular dinner would look like. And I must say, I loved it! The bride was so PRETTY!!! And she's soooooo friendly and pleasant. When she met my family and I, she treated us like we're already her friends or something, while actually we only met her for the first time! :D The dinner overall was FABULOUS as well! Typical Chinese wedding dinner, but the food was totally AWESOME!

 The bride and groom

The place where the wedding dinner is

My mum :)

My uncle singing for the bride and groom :D

  During the dinner, my mum, my cousin and I suddenly sparked up the conversation about marriages. Because I'm a mix, so during my wedding, I have to have TWO types of ceremonies. One Filipino, and one Chinese. Plus, my boyfriend's Indian. And IF we EVER GET MARRIED, there's his side of the ceremony as well! I was like, "Oh my God! My wedding is going to be VERY long!". xD

  Well... That was last night. Today, we went to Sunway Pyramid for some "Asian Avenue" clothes shopping. There were so many cute and cheap outfits, but they didn't really appeal to me.. :\ I only bought a cool red bag and a cardigan, while my mum bought a brown long-sleeved blouse. After that, we went to Subway for lunch, and then we stopped by at Juice Corner for some "healthy" drinks before we headed home. :P

LOL.... I swear my mum's turning into a camwhore! xD

  *sigh* However.... They just left not long ago... And now I'm all alone again... I really do miss my family, but what to do?? I have got to be independent! x) Never mind.... I still get to go back to my hometown during weekends! :D I'll be looking forward to that every single time! x)

Facebook - God Wants You To Know

  As we all know, Facebook has A WHOLE VARIETY of apps, from games to match-making to astrology and what's not. Well, some of the apps, in my opinion, just suck and these kind of apps just waste my time (eg. Luck Today). But then, there's this ONE particular app that I've always been fond of using it. It's called "God Wants You To Know".


  Not that I'm being all religious or anything. It's just that, this particular app actually shows really good advices about life. Like for today, I clicked on the app. The advice is like, totally true! It goes:


On this day, God wants you to know...:


"that work begins when you don't like what you are doing. Little children can do the most amazing things with such joy and fun. You were little once too, and knew how to turn everything into a game. So, turn your work into a game, and you will find joy and satisfaction in it. What are some ways you can start being playful with work?"


  Ain't it nice??? ;) I seriously recommend this app for people who just want to look for random advices (like moi... :P) on their spare time, just so that we can learn a little bit more about life. Truthfully speaking, the advices are not really God related. They're more like how to live a peaceful and less-stressed up life. :)


  So... What does "GOD" want you to know today??? ;)

Short Update - Fate

  Have you ever experienced receiving a text message from a loved one (example boyfriend), but at the same time you just sent a text message to that person? If you have, how many times?


  For me, I have, and it actually happened not long ago... And to make it MORE interesting, it WASN'T the first time! So now it comes to my next question: Is this what people call FATE???


  :P




p/s: I just found out that my posts are getting shorter.... Is it a good sign??? :S 

Gloomy Rantsterz.....

  *sigh* I feel so drifted away today... Being back home has gotten me to think more, not about my course of whatever, but more about what I want to do and my future.


  "Am I falling out again?" - I've been asking myself this question for a while now. And I seriously hate myself for it. I'm such a b****!!! Why do I always fall out so easily?! Can someone please slap me out of it??


  *sigh* Maybe it's this darn gloomy weather that's making me feel like this. But in a way, I'm kinda relieved because IT FINALLY RAINED!!! LOL... I'm so contradicting myself...


  Owh Kays! I've gotta stop ranting now or else I'm gonna get beaten up! :P Ngeks! Bye!

Blackie Black Black... HOTNESS!!

   LOL.... I seriously have a mental problem... Today is so GAWDAMNIT hot, and I'm wearing BLACK. Not only that, to add on the "blackness", my laptop, wireless keyboard and mouse, and also my headphones are BLACK. Hahaha... Lucky that my room is PINK, or less I think I'll BURN OUT OF HOTNESS!!! ><


  But seriously, why is it that it's not that hot in the Big City, while over here (my hometown) is like BURNING!!! ><


  *sigh* I NEED TO COOL OFF!!!