It's already Thursday. Another 3 more days of "fun" before school begins again. Ugh~ I just hate school. I hate my class. I hate having to deal with the upcoming Chemistry quiz next Tuesday. I hate having to wake up by 6.00 am everyday again. I hate my life... (=.=)
OK, OK. I'm being ridiculous now. Maybe it's because I'm still Goddamned sick & I cannot stop worrying. I really, truly do not want to get swine flu. But, as I was just starting to get relieved that my temperature's dropped, it goes back up again! I mean, come on! I really want to finish all my delayed assignments & homework, not to mention to study for my upcoming Chemistry quiz. I really want that 10 percent for the finals~~ (>.<)
I just finished watching "The Bodyguard" on You Tube for the third time now. It's been so long since I last saw that movie. I love Whitney in that film, but I still (and will always) love Kevin the most~!! He is just so darn smoking hot~!! & now I have "I Have Nothing" stuck in my head. I don't think that I can get it out in the next couple of days. So, to all my peers & my family, just bear with me~!! LMAO~~
After that, watched another few Paula videos on You Tube. She's so cool~!! Just love her to death~ But in a celeb-fan kind of way. I'm not lesbian, just in case you do not know yet~
Then, I decided to read some "Saula" (which stands for Paula+Simon. Something like "Brangellina" or "Bennifer") fanfics on Saula Heaven, or SH for short. There are actually some really good writers out there, some even better than the famous authors (but I don't wanna point out any names). Some of the fanfics like "If I Don't Have You" and "Nebulous" are just FABULOUS~!!! Although, I have to come back to terms that these are only fan-fictions. They are indeed NOT TRUE~ I feel like writing one myself, but seeing my talent here. I've concluded that I'm indeed a horrible writer & I don't want to take a risk & embarrass myself.
I'm still feeling a bit warm, but better than before. Last night, I suddenly couldn't breathe. I don't know why. I felt like my chest was being pressed on really hard. I felt like the Oxygen around me was decreasing. I was so in pain, but I never told my mum. Instead, I slowly went to the kitchen & drank a glass of warm water. Then, my breathing started to become steadier, & my chest pain was starting to subside. Finally, at around 1.30 am, I managed to get some decent sleep.
I hate being sick all the time, but I have no choice. I have to live with the fact that I'm going to have to take life-long medications, because I'm having chronic sinus & I've inherited my mum's asthma. But, I don't want those "pests" to ruin my daily lifestyle. I still want to dance, sing, act, do martial arts, run, play badminton, go out with my girlfriends & so on. I'm not going to give up living up to my life motto, which is "live life to the fullest". I'm going to risk getting broken bones & sprained ankles over & over again because I'm doing something that has meaning to my life. I don't want to listen to my mum & say, "OK. I'm gonna stop all this so that I won't have to face any 'old age' complications in my future." I am an individual (quote from my mum. Sometimes she can be the most interesting & yet the weirdest person in the world.), & I am the one who will determine my future. Therefore, I am willing to take all the consequences for my actions that I've done. I will not blame it on anybody including myself. =)
So, here I am now. On my bed, with my laptop on my lap. Typing away just to kill some time. God, these meds are making me become a lunatic! I'm just typing whatever that is going through my mind right now. & right now, my head is saying, "Let's do some studying. Then afterwards let's watch videos on You Tube again~!!" LMAO~~!!! XD
OK. So... That's all.... Umm.... Well... Bye.... *blushing*
Till then...
Signing off,
~Steph~
(the gurl y'all never expected to be...)
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