All I can say is "WOW!!!" for everything that has been happening around me lately. First off, I FINALLY GET TO PERFORM MY SOLO RUMBA IN THE BIGGEST EVENT IN THE HISTORY OF TELUK INTAN (& mine of course! xD)!!!!! All I can say is drama, drama & more drama. *sighs* I had to face my parents constant scolding because I had to go back to my hometown like, EVERY WEEK just for the grueling training from my super strict (but I still love her) instructor. They were really upset because they thought that I was neglecting my studies (again) for dancing. OH MY GOD! Has anyone heard of PASSION & DREAMS????? & has anyone heard of HOBBIES TO RELEASE STRESS???? I mean, I've been so stressed with my horrible living & studying status in KL. I NEED MY FIX~!!! & my fix is dancing~~~ I seriously do not understand why my parents just can't see that? Come on! I've been giving them obvious hints since I was 3++ years old for the past friggin' 16 years of my life! I love the stage. I love to inspire people. I love to perform because I don't only get to inspire people, but I can inspired & motivated by them as well. I don't think my parents will ever know the feeling of euphoria (maybe that's too strong of a word) when the crowd stands & claps for a good performance. However...... I think that all that has changed after they saw my performance with their own eyes during my teacher's Dinner & Dance party in SJK (C) Chong Min. I'm really glad that I can make then proud, & also my own teacher proud. All the audience were like asking my dad, "Is this your daughter?" & they also said, "She's a really good dancer." "She's the best one of the night. You should be proud of her." It wasn't only my dad & mum smiling from ear to ear hearing the audience's comments, my teacher was also in cloud nine when she received all the good reviews from them. They were like, "This student of yours is one heck of a talent." "She should further her dance hobby. Maybe take professional lessons in KL & become & world-class dancer." & etc etc. When they came to my & (highly & overly) praised my performance, all I could say was, "That is because I have THE best teacher for guidance & parents who supported me. If it weren't for them, I wouldn't be this good. In fact, I don't think I've achieve greatness yet. I'm still on my way there." =)
OK. Enough of my dance babble. Throughout this whole..... I don't even know how long (LOL!), I've found a nice guy who became my boyfriend. He's like, one of the sweetest ones EVER!!! I loved him so much, that is, until he hurt me so bad, I don't even know whether I can even FACE him right in the eye. Apparently, he has a dark secret. He is actually still in love with his ex, although it was her who dumped him. I was so shocked & hurt when I heard him tell me that I literally ignored him completely because I found out that he's actually totally & utterly confused with himself. *sad* *sighs* Well, life is like that. It's time to move on...... I seriously hope that he can find HIS self-actualization & not to look back to his past.
Another thing is...... I FINALLY HAVE 3 NEW HOUSEMATES!!!! I'm finally not living in this big condo all alone & lonely anymore! =) It's good to have company, but sometimes I still wish that I can have some time to myself. Being constantly..... Er...... How to put this? Er.... "watched" by other people in my own house sometimes can be a tinnie bit frustrating. Especially when the 3 cannot actually get along with each other. Like I've said in my previous post, I found out that most of the Mass Comm students of the March '10 intake are very judgemental. I really wanna look that the good side of everyone, but somehow, one way or another, they will always try to upset me by manipulating me. In fact, to tell you the truth, I seriously do not like some of them, like honest-truth-cross-my heart-&-hope-to-die kind. They're so judgmental up to the point where they actually stomp that person's reputation. They're something like those old & married wives (no offense ya~~~) who just cannot stop "ge po"-ing ("ge po" means busy body). It is a total known fact for those who have known me all my life that I HATE & DESPISE these kind of people. There is one or two in particular who I actually really feel like strangling~~~~ YES! IT IS THAT BAD!!!! >.<
*sighs* Anyway, I still have to get going with my life. I won't let these small humps & hiccups stop me from succeeding. I have to do whatever it takes if I want to achieve my completeness in life, & I intend to stick to that. =)
That's all for now. Till then....
Signing off,
~Steph~
(the girl y'all never expected to be...)
p/s: Like the new pic? I took this in my dance outfit before going to the hall for my performance! =)
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