Problems, problems, problems.... I've been trying to evade them for quite a while now. Somehow, I feel that the "ball of problemos" is going to burst anytime soon. I feel so torn up, & I'm scared to go back to that road again... =(
Firstly, my housemates. They're like, getting worse day by day. From not doing ANY chores what-so-ever in the house, to the constant boycotts & backstabbing (particularly towards one). For one, I seriously DO NOT like their attitude that they are showing to me AT ALL~!!! They are good people, that I will not deny, but their ignorant, self-absorbed, snobbish, "princessie" (particularly one) characters are driving me nuts! >< I feel like I'm Cinderella doing all the shitty house chores, while they just sit in front of their freakin' laptops ALL DAY! At least among the 3, one always helps me, while the other helps me once in a while. That "particular" one NEVER EVER helped me since the day they moved in! >< I know that you're rich & you never did any house chores back in your hometown, but please lah! This is MY PLACE, & NOT YOURS! I'm not saying that you have to do all the chores, just lend me a hand. Is that too much to ask for? =(
Not only that, the duo in particular, are very very VERY JUDGMENTAL. Well, that's from my constant observations while hanging out with them everyday (do I even have a choice not to?!). I seriously do not understand why do they want to make false claims which are negative about others, & make conclusions out of them without having to analyze at all. It like, if someone says something wrong for only ONCE, they will sum up that person's character to be negative all the way. I mean, OH MY GOD! Have they even analyzed themselves???? Do they think that they're soooooo good & nice & sweet?? *pfuit!* Whatever lah! What I don't like is, they are judging me (well, can see it through their eyes) & I'm the one who took pity on them & let them stay at MY condo! >< *sigh* Or maybe I'm just thinking too much again..... I don't know. =\ I'm just really stressed because I have to be the "middleman" every time there's a misunderstanding going on between them.... & I'm totally sick of it! To make matters worse, just because I talk to one of the trio, doesn't mean that I'm secretly going against them or whatever. But somehow, I don't think that's the case, because I'm starting to feel that not only are they avoiding me, but my other friends around me as well. Like, WHAT THE HELL?!!!! ><"""" *sighs* I'm thinking too much again... Maybe. =S
I need some help..... Please, if anyone can help me, I will be forever grateful. I don't wanna name any names because I do respect people's privacy. But, these problems have been going on for a while, & if I don't let out soon, I think I'll blow up! *screams*
Well, that's all for now. Till then...
Signing off,
~Stephanie~
(the girl y'all never expected to be...)
Hey peeps! I'm so sorry for not updating my blog frequently. I've been quite busy lately, & I just can't find the slightest time to update~~ =P
Anyways...... Since I'm here now, I mind as well tell my whole story! *Pfuit* LIKE I DON'T! LOL~~~~ OK, seriously. I have so many things to tell you guys. Let me start from...... I'M FINALLY GETTING THE HANG OF DRIVING IN KL~!!! =D Well, that's because my mum is in KL now. She & the rest of my family came last Saturday because: 1. My dad's flying off to Indonesia to work *sobs*, & 2. My mum has some training here. Driving in KL is OK, until you meet those stupid arsehole drivers who are so darn inconsiderate & selfish~!! >.<"""" But overall, it was good.
The reason why I chose this title is because there's so many drama going on in my group of friends, especially my housemates. Man, I'm like the middleman right now. I seriously HATE this position! It was until the point where I had to ask my close friend/counselor/everything to help me~~ =S I don't want to be involved at all actually, but somehow both parties like want me to choose. *sigh* I don't want this at all. Tried staying neutral, just got worse (I think). I don't understand why do people have to be so judgmental. We are all humans. We WILL have our own flaws. But I think that this is going to far, because both parties are like telling me one another the opposition's bad traits. I mean, come on! These are just petty little stuff, plus they're so goddamn stubborn to open a bit & see the real person in each of them. As the middleman, I think that I'm the only one who know both parties points well. & as if that wasn't enough, they wanted me to pick sides. PICK SIDES MAN!!! & I think it's best that I stick to my friend's advice,"Steph, just act blur. Even if you know it, just ignore." =) *wink wink*
I know that Paula was, is & will be "forever my girl". She's like, my idol since I was 4 years old! =) She will never EVER be replaced with any other people (well, except for my mum). But now, I'm starting to get another celeb addiction. That celeb is SARAH BRIGHTMAN! =D I'm so hooked up with her songs recently, especially "Phantom Of The Opera", "Symphony", "Fluer du Mal", "You & Me (2008 Beijing Olympics)", "Amigas Para Siempre (1992 Barcelona Olympics)", "Canto della Terra" & "Pasion". Plus, I'm so freakin' hooked up with the Gothic Opera movie that she starred in - "Repo! The Genetic Opera". The movie is very disturbing, I will not deny that. However, the storyline is the main reason why I love this movie, although I totally hate the eerie settings, goth theme & the disgusting graphics. It's like, it makes you wonder "why is this like this" & "why is that like that". It also makes you want to know the history & what made it led to this. Though the storyline is interesting, I can't help but to feel disappointed with the ending. I mean, why Blind Mag (Sarah Brightman) had to die? & why Amber Sweet (Paris Hilton.... UGH! *pukes*) had to become GeneCo's president? =( The songs in the movie are very addictive & nice, especially "Chase The Morning" (sung by Sarah Brightman & Alexa Vega featuring Sarah Power), "At The Opera Tonight" (sung by the whole cast) & "Zydrate Anatomy" (sung by the "Graverobber"). I really recommend this movie for those who love goth & musicals. =)
Well, I guess that's all. Till then...
Signing off,
~Steph~
(the girl y'all never expected to be...)
p/s: I don't have any photos to upload because I'm using the lab computer. =)
Hi hi~!! I'm so sorry for not updating for such a long time. I've been very busy with so many random stuff, but now I'M BACK Y'ALL! =)
All I can say is "WOW!!!" for everything that has been happening around me lately. First off, I FINALLY GET TO PERFORM MY SOLO RUMBA IN THE BIGGEST EVENT IN THE HISTORY OF TELUK INTAN (& mine of course! xD)!!!!! All I can say is drama, drama & more drama. *sighs* I had to face my parents constant scolding because I had to go back to my hometown like, EVERY WEEK just for the grueling training from my super strict (but I still love her) instructor. They were really upset because they thought that I was neglecting my studies (again) for dancing. OH MY GOD! Has anyone heard of PASSION & DREAMS????? & has anyone heard of HOBBIES TO RELEASE STRESS???? I mean, I've been so stressed with my horrible living & studying status in KL. I NEED MY FIX~!!! & my fix is dancing~~~ I seriously do not understand why my parents just can't see that? Come on! I've been giving them obvious hints since I was 3++ years old for the past friggin' 16 years of my life! I love the stage. I love to inspire people. I love to perform because I don't only get to inspire people, but I can inspired & motivated by them as well. I don't think my parents will ever know the feeling of euphoria (maybe that's too strong of a word) when the crowd stands & claps for a good performance. However...... I think that all that has changed after they saw my performance with their own eyes during my teacher's Dinner & Dance party in SJK (C) Chong Min. I'm really glad that I can make then proud, & also my own teacher proud. All the audience were like asking my dad, "Is this your daughter?" & they also said, "She's a really good dancer." "She's the best one of the night. You should be proud of her." It wasn't only my dad & mum smiling from ear to ear hearing the audience's comments, my teacher was also in cloud nine when she received all the good reviews from them. They were like, "This student of yours is one heck of a talent." "She should further her dance hobby. Maybe take professional lessons in KL & become & world-class dancer." & etc etc. When they came to my & (highly & overly) praised my performance, all I could say was, "That is because I have THE best teacher for guidance & parents who supported me. If it weren't for them, I wouldn't be this good. In fact, I don't think I've achieve greatness yet. I'm still on my way there." =)
OK. Enough of my dance babble. Throughout this whole..... I don't even know how long (LOL!), I've found a nice guy who became my boyfriend. He's like, one of the sweetest ones EVER!!! I loved him so much, that is, until he hurt me so bad, I don't even know whether I can even FACE him right in the eye. Apparently, he has a dark secret. He is actually still in love with his ex, although it was her who dumped him. I was so shocked & hurt when I heard him tell me that I literally ignored him completely because I found out that he's actually totally & utterly confused with himself. *sad* *sighs* Well, life is like that. It's time to move on...... I seriously hope that he can find HIS self-actualization & not to look back to his past.
Another thing is...... I FINALLY HAVE 3 NEW HOUSEMATES!!!! I'm finally not living in this big condo all alone & lonely anymore! =) It's good to have company, but sometimes I still wish that I can have some time to myself. Being constantly..... Er...... How to put this? Er.... "watched" by other people in my own house sometimes can be a tinnie bit frustrating. Especially when the 3 cannot actually get along with each other. Like I've said in my previous post, I found out that most of the Mass Comm students of the March '10 intake are very judgemental. I really wanna look that the good side of everyone, but somehow, one way or another, they will always try to upset me by manipulating me. In fact, to tell you the truth, I seriously do not like some of them, like honest-truth-cross-my heart-&-hope-to-die kind. They're so judgmental up to the point where they actually stomp that person's reputation. They're something like those old & married wives (no offense ya~~~) who just cannot stop "ge po"-ing ("ge po" means busy body). It is a total known fact for those who have known me all my life that I HATE & DESPISE these kind of people. There is one or two in particular who I actually really feel like strangling~~~~ YES! IT IS THAT BAD!!!! >.<
*sighs* Anyway, I still have to get going with my life. I won't let these small humps & hiccups stop me from succeeding. I have to do whatever it takes if I want to achieve my completeness in life, & I intend to stick to that. =)
That's all for now. Till then....
Signing off,
~Steph~
(the girl y'all never expected to be...)
p/s: Like the new pic? I took this in my dance outfit before going to the hall for my performance! =)
